Surprise, surprise, it has been a while since I blogged yet again. I have to admit, a hell of a lot has happened since and I shall tell you all about it over the next few weeks, but today I wanted to talk a little about some inspiration I have had over the past week that has got me thinking, which in effect has got me down a few times if I'm being completely honest, but all in all I have come out of all these emotional breakdown feeling quite inspired and determined.
What I have been noticing a lot recently is that over the past few years I have spent so much time focusing on getting where I want to be in the future. This was mainly because in high school with bullying and stuff like that, it was the only thing that kept me going; looking forward to a much brighter future in a career that I love and enjoy. As much as I am still doing that, I am still doing that. Nowadays I am really enjoying my life, yes there is a tonne of homework that I keep getting from college, as well as the revision we are expected to do (of which I have still not yet started, oops), but I have a great bunch of friends which do get on my nerves from time to time but they are like my family, in fact they are my family seen as my real family are pretty shit at being a family. I have a wonderful boyfriend - I shall say more about that at a later date and I may even be majorly cringey just because when I write sometimes that happens despite the possibility of that becoming really awkward if we were to break up. Hopefully that isn't going to be happening any time soon! I am doing well in all my subjects and for once I feel like I'm starting to get on top of things even thought I'm still trying to catch up on my media coursework when the deadline is this Friday.
Continuing on with the actual topic of this blog... I am enjoying myself at the moment but I still always feel like I'm living in this monotonous world where I am constantly doing work and thinking about work all in order to do well and prepare me for my future. My boyfriend travels to South Africa each year with his parents and does volunteering, something which I have always wanted to do. He is amazing a photography, among other stuff, and can edit incredibly on Photoshop. Recently he has been creating some amazing things and has also started writing a book which he originally started when he was younger. He read a bit of it too me the other day and from what I heard, it sounded really good and extremely imaginative. One of my other friends, 17 years of age, has recently published her first book only last week, I read that and I really enjoyed it. One of my best friends, who is very musically gifted, has also decided he is writing an album during this upcoming Easter holidays. Although he has asked me to sing a few songs on it I have come to the conclusion that my life at this point in time is pretty worthless.
Everyone always says to enjoy your teenage years because they are the best years of your life. I guess I have enjoy parts but to be honest I have never really done anything that appeals to me. Last summer was probably the closest I got to fully enjoying myself by doing the things that I enjoy, like creating and editing videos then posting them on the internet. I know I love writing (blogging, writing songs, writing stories), singing, keeping fit, playing the piano, etcetera etcetera. But in reality I never do any of those things I enjoy doing because I'm too busy focusing on my college work and focusing on my future. With all my friends doing the things that they love it has honestly inspired me to become more focused on my present life. In all my life I don't think I have ever properly been able to say that I have been inspired to do something until now. I have been inspired to finally become more determined to do the things that I love the most.
I have decided I'm going to start writing a lot more, whether that's blogging or actually writing a story and possibly getting it published one day, an achievement which my friend has made already. To be honest, it has always been on my bucket list to publish a book. In the upcoming holidays I shall also see if I can write a few songs like I used to. I'm going to learn more songs on the piano and start to get back into a routine where I do exercises everyday. I will be uploading some more YouTube videos and hopefully continuing to create them on a more regular basis than just during the holidays.
Obviously I will have to continue doing my work, and it's probably more important so that I can actually pass my exams. My AS Level exam timetable has finally been posted online so I found out that I only have 4 exams, three of which are maths. It may only be two subjects to revise for but that is still a hell of a lot when it come to those subjects and especially at A level standards. With exam season coming around I can see myself doing a lot of revision but luckily I think I will be getting a bit of extra free time soon. I hope at least.
Thanks for reading!
- KC xx
Blog posts to come:
- Holiday in Playa Del Carmen, Mexico
- Review of It's Right in Front of You by Bethany Speight
- Update on life