The Ugly 2016

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Hello Everyone!

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to the new year! I most definitely am. Just like many other people, 2016 hasn't been the best of years, despite how positive I felt about it at the very beginning. I was originally on a mission to make 2016 a brilliant year I had so many plans and set myself what I thought to be reachable goals and in my bucket list update, I didn't seem to be doing too bad and I could have done so much more had all my plans not completely changed.

This year has most definitely had it's ups and down! We all know what it's been like in politics and with celebrity deaths. So much has happened that I definitely don't want to have to remember but unfortunately we're most likely going to be suffering from the changes of Brexit and Donald Trump for some time. Luckily, it's up to us to make sure 2017 is an enjoyable year. I'm excited to set all my new goals and my 2017 bucket list like I do every year, and this year, I'm feeling motivated.

Before that, I want to do a little review. A recap of my year including all the bad points and the good points. Ok, well I'm not going to do all of them, I just want to do a few of each and then finish with what I'm looking forward to. This could get a bit personal but I think I'm finally ready to write about it! Considering this year has been so bad. for now, here's the bad parts:

2016 IN REVIEW - the bad/ugly

- My cat, Riu, died. It was horrible. I went to work thinking everything was fine and came hope to find both my parents crying saying they had something to tell me. I struggled a lot with it since I've never really had anyone close to me pass away before so this was such a big shock and given that I hadn't been in the best of moods, I completely broke down and it took me a good couple of weeks to get back on my feet.


- Not only has there been a lot of celebrity deaths but given that I literally just wrote that I'd never really had anyone close to me pass away, I was in and out of hospital giving my full-time support to my boyfriend in May. Unfortunately he lost his Dad. It's not nice to lose a parent at any age but he is only 19 so he suffered. I did what I could to stand by him. Later on in the year, on the morning I was about to set off to university, I found out one of my friends from my drama class at college had passed away due to meningitis. All my drama class were close but none of knew how she was ill until it had happened. I found myself breaking down again and really struggled to stay happy despite it being my first day of my new life.

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- Despite the horrible things that have happened, the thing that's got me down the most is that I have actually had depression. If I can even put it like that. After my cat died, which seemed to top me over the edge, I knew there was something wrong and reached out to my Mum. I found myself in and out of doctors appointments for all kinds of things but most importantly, I was officially diagnosed with chronic depression and the doctor suggested I take the tablets to prevent it. I'm not one for taking medicine so I just didn't got back for the follow up appointment. Too scared to admit that I needed that kind of help. I don't know what I expected in the first place. I knew I was going on holiday and though that would be a nice break for me and eventually I decided I was going to university so I thought getting myself back into a proper routine and having lots to keep my mind on I'd be ok.

Things looked brighter but I didn't really cheer up. I have still been really struggling throughout university up until the point where I considered going back to the doctors to get the prescription. Since I've been back home for Christmas, yet again expecting myself to cheer up because I'm home and it has been Christmas of all seasons, I have still been suffered greatly from random spurts of unhappiness. I suddenly remembered something about side-effects of being on the pill and starting doing a little research. I have now been on the pill for 2 and a half years so since things have slowly been getting worse over this period, it was clear that there's possibly a correlation. My research proved it too. Apparently there have been a large number of cases where patients on the pill have later been diagnosed with depression. So I have made the decision to no longer take them. Hopefully 2017 will prove to be a better year.

I really really hope that the new year will bring much more happiness to myself and everyone! 2016 has been such a struggle and I don't fancy having to do anything like it again.

Look out for the good parts of 2016!

- KC xx

How has your year been? Good, bad or ugly?

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29 comments

  1. So sorry, It's been a tough year for you and hope you have a much better 2017. I have suffered some awful years in the past including this past one by moving out the country it's been challenging but I always remind myself that tomorrow is another day and everything is going to be ok.

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    1. Yeah, I'm looking forward to this new year as a way of starting fresh and having a much more positive outlook on life :D

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  2. Sorry you had a tough year and sorry about Riu. My Coco (pug) will get an extra cuddle tonight. Depression is a nasty disease so I hope you get the right treatment for it. It can only get better, stay positive and hope the New Year is a better one.. I had one of those VERY bad years a couple of years ago.. and trust me it does get better! xx

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    1. Give Coco a cuddle from me too! I really hope this year proves to be better :D

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  3. Sorry to hear about your cat, Riu looked a very cute cat

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  4. It's been a sad year for me in many years. :( I'll be quite glad to say goodbye to it...

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    1. Definitely glad for it to be over! Now 2017 is here we can have a fresh new day!

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  5. I did't know the pill could cause depression, that's another reason against using it. Sorry to hear about your cat, I lost 2 cats and it is heart breaking as they become part of the family. Hope 2017 is better for you.

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    1. I wasn't too sure about it but apparently there have been quite a few cases. Thank you :) He was so young but I still have my other cat :)

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  6. Oh gosh I am sorry to hear 2016 was such a bad year for you :( here's hoping that 2017 has a little more sparkle.

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  7. I'm so sorry 2016 has been so tough on you. I've struggled with my depression at times too, and even without any of the other things you've experienced, it can be such a hard thing to deal with. Here's to 2017 being a better one for you <3

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    1. It has been hard but looking forward to the new year! thank you:)

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  8. Yikes, I'm so sorry to hear that 2016 was horrible for you. I wish you much happiness and a very happy new year.

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  9. I am so sorry about your cat and I do hope 2017 is a much better year for you x

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  10. Gosh, i'm sorry 2016 was a bad year for you. I hope you manage to fond something which helps you this year with your depression. I struggle to especially in the winter months so if you ever need a friendly chat i'm here. Hope 2017 brings you joy x

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    1. Thank you so much! It's lovely having so much support!

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  11. Sorry to hear about your uglies in 2016 - it definitely hasn't been a good year for most and like you I started the year full of determination and expectation and ended it feeling very relieved that it was over.

    I also suffer from depression so please feel free to add me on Twitter if you ever want to talk.

    Emmie xo
    www.unsignedmeblog.co.uk

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    1. I've already said on twitter how much I appreciated your comment! But thank you so much because your offer of support really made me smile! It's lovely knowing people are out there just to talk!

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  12. I am truly sorry for the uglies 2016 threw at you and hoping 2017 only has the best intentions. I on the other hand can not complain about anything because 2016 was just one of those years that was blooming brilliant even the uglies were brilliant.

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  13. I am so sorry you had such a troubled 2016. Losing people and pets is a horrible experience and not one anyone should go through. I hope 2017 is a lot brighter and more positive for you all xx

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  14. I think like all of us 2016 had some good and ugly moments. I've lost my father in law but gain a new home... I hope 2017 will bring you more happiness!

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  15. So sorry it was such a tough year for you in 2016, here's hoping 2017 is a lot better xx

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  16. I'm sorry you've had such a tough year, I hope 2017 is much kinder to you and your loved ones! Coming off the Pill made a huge difference to my mood so I hope you feel better now you're off it ♥

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  17. Sorry to hear your year hasn't been great but it's great to hear you're taking matters into your own hands when it comes to your health x

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  18. So sorry to hear that 2016 wasn't the best for you, Sending best wishes for 2017! xo

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