It's not very often I think about doing a longer, more personal post like this but since it's January and my head is in goal setting mode, I've been having a serious think about what I want to achieve out of life and where I want to be in so many years time. You know, those usual job interview questions. It can often seem daunting to think about the future, especially when it's so far away. A couple of months ahead might not be too bad but a couple of years can seem a life time a way. After 2016, it's been made crystal clear than everything can change in a matter of months or even days in some cases and that's really put things in perspective.
We all want to be happy and to do the things that make us happy but then there's always that constant saying how sometimes we have to push through all the hard to get to the good. Like working a 9 to 5 retail/sales job for months on end when you really want to be a performer or want to travel. That's basically what I was doing all year until I finally decided to go to university. (Except it was 9 'til half 5, that extra half an hour kills you when you're on your feet all day.) When I go to university I'm then told how I have to do all these extra things before I can simply move on. It's got me thinking about where I actually want it to get me. What do I get at the end of it? A degree. But what in? And how is that going to help?
I'm studying Drama and Theatre Practice. It's what I've always loved and it's the only thing I could really see myself studying at degree level. I always wanted to perform as a kid and have grown up pushing myself in that direction. I love the thrill of performing and making people feel a variety of emotions from the performance I put on. During college, I discovered my love of directing and actually creating theatre so choosing the degree at Hull University allowed me to branch out from just acting to see other aspects of theatre more deeply. So far I have studied early 20th theatre, had lectures on all sorts, architecture included, and developed my knowledge of being a sound designer within the industry. It's great to give me an all round kind of knowledge but it's not helping me focus on the things I enjoy. That said, we get to choose our modules next year which will hopefully help me follow the directions I wish to choose.
That all makes this year the 'push through' year. Typical that I'd just got out of one to be put straight back into another. It bothered me a lot before Christmas but now that I've got to relax a bit and figure things out, I'm feeling much better about it. In fact, I feel ready to get back into things, but I'm taking things into my own hands. I only have 11 hours of lessons a week (but I have rehearsals, assignments, hockey practice, and dance on top of that) so why should that stop me from trying to find my own way.
What I want to do in life
Theatre and travel have been the two big things in my life that I've always enjoyed and wanted to learn more about. This idea has always been at the back of my mind but I've never really focused on it too much. Now I've thought about it, I want to do it. The idea I'm on about it merging the two together. History is another interest I've always had, particularly ancient history so why can't I travel and find out more about how theatre was used and has developed since ancient history. That's my plan. To do this I'm obviously going to have to save up to travel but I'm also going to have to get a pretty good background knowledge. My initial plan is to start my research now. I want to do some courses on ancient history this year. I want to focus my degree on theatre of the world or throughout history. I want to explore everything that I can whilst still continuing my life at university.
If I can then pursue this as a career, I could teach what I've learnt at universities. I would like to be able to document my travels by continuing my blog and editing together videos and perhaps one day, I will have my own TV documentary series, a bit like Stephen Fry when he traveled through Southern America.
Thinking about it actually does get me excited for the possibilities of the future and motivates me to start working towards it. Myself and my boyfriend have a little plan to travel as much as we can when we're around 25, and by that I mean across the world, so until then it is just going to be constant saving and researching to learn all that I can. I will add that I'd like to learn more about astronomy and physics too. Perhaps I can even link that into the plans!
- KC xx
What are your aspirations in life? Have you managed to reach them or are you on the journey?
Photos are taken from the free library provided by Canva. I wanted something to look at rather than just reading and I just loved these photos.