Hey! Life has been quite hard recently. Hard on the basis that I'm finding it difficult to fit things in and properly get myself in...

A little life update - part 1


Life has been quite hard recently. Hard on the basis that I'm finding it difficult to fit things in and properly get myself into a routine where I can do everything. That, and the fact that I've been ill. I finally (touch wood) think I'm over the illness. It started off as freshers flu but then just didn't get better. In fact, it got much worse. So much so that I was in A&E at one point. Things are finally picking up but I have very little time left to catch up on everything. My blog included.

It annoys me when I can't find the time to blog because I enjoy it so much and it's something I'm very proud of and I don't want to let myself down. Now that I've had a break, and recovered from being ill for so long, it's about time I get back into things and arrange my life.

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University has been OK. I wouldn't say it's the best but that's just me. I'm like that. The course it's self has been alright but so far I am just repeating stuff I've done since I was in year 8. I guess that's the perks of having a teacher who was trained by Jacques Lecoq for a second time, so the method of teaching are very similar. We have a practical specialism module where we can focus on a specific technical aspect of theatre and this semester I've been doing sound. That's been fun and I've made some good friends out of it. It's reminded me how much I enjoy recording and editing! The lectures so far have been alright but nothing that's really inspired me, and the other module we do has just been boring. After speaking to second years, most say that everything get's a lot more interesting in second semester and especially in second year where you can choose what you study.

I'm the sort of person who's at uni to study and learn. I don't drink so I'm not a fan of going out to night clubs where I'm in a hot and sweaty room full of drunks. I am much more interested on gaining knowledge. So far, I don't feel like I've particularly learnt anything but I hope it gets better.

I am a part of the hockey team and I'm in the dance squad so outside of lessons I keep myself busy. I think it's getting to the point where it's a little too busy though. In semester 2 I'm going to have to make some changes to my schedule to allow myself more time to focus on all the things I want to do. I want to be able to film, record, and edit, to travel and to explore, and to watch a lot more science related documentaries. Sounds daft, but when I've had the time to watch travel or science documentaries, I feel so much more inspired. In the new year, I want to focus on what inspires me and try my best to create theatre and film from the inspirations.

I spent the past weekend at home. Since it's such a long journey I could only stay the night but I really didn't feel like I wanted to come back. It was so nice to be back at home with no worries which gave me the opportunity to focus on the things I want to do, including my fundraising. I didn't want to not come back at all, I just didn't feel ready. I felt like another couple of days at home would have calmed me down and given me the space I need. Now, I can't wait for the Christmas holidays. It's a little daunting though considering the amount I have to do.

I really don't know where I'm going with this post. I simply opened up the page and began to write. Sometimes that's the best way to get things off your chest. There's probably a lot more I could say but for now I've got this out. It doesn't seem very positive does it?! I guess I'll call it a little life update, but I'll do part 2 which is more positive.

I hope your lives are looking good on the run up to Christmas! I think that's what I need right now, some good ol' Christmas spirit! 

See ya later!
- KC xx

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