Hello Everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to the new year! I most definitely am. Just like many ...

The Ugly 2016

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to the new year! I most definitely am. Just like many other people, 2016 hasn't been the best of years, despite how positive I felt about it at the very beginning. I was originally on a mission to make 2016 a brilliant year I had so many plans and set myself what I thought to be reachable goals and in my bucket list update, I didn't seem to be doing too bad and I could have done so much more had all my plans not completely changed.

This year has most definitely had it's ups and down! We all know what it's been like in politics and with celebrity deaths. So much has happened that I definitely don't want to have to remember but unfortunately we're most likely going to be suffering from the changes of Brexit and Donald Trump for some time. Luckily, it's up to us to make sure 2017 is an enjoyable year. I'm excited to set all my new goals and my 2017 bucket list like I do every year, and this year, I'm feeling motivated.

Before that, I want to do a little review. A recap of my year including all the bad points and the good points. Ok, well I'm not going to do all of them, I just want to do a few of each and then finish with what I'm looking forward to. This could get a bit personal but I think I'm finally ready to write about it! Considering this year has been so bad. for now, here's the bad parts:

2016 IN REVIEW - the bad/ugly

- My cat, Riu, died. It was horrible. I went to work thinking everything was fine and came hope to find both my parents crying saying they had something to tell me. I struggled a lot with it since I've never really had anyone close to me pass away before so this was such a big shock and given that I hadn't been in the best of moods, I completely broke down and it took me a good couple of weeks to get back on my feet.

- Not only has there been a lot of celebrity deaths but given that I literally just wrote that I'd never really had anyone close to me pass away, I was in and out of hospital giving my full-time support to my boyfriend in May. Unfortunately he lost his Dad. It's not nice to lose a parent at any age but he is only 19 so he suffered. I did what I could to stand by him. Later on in the year, on the morning I was about to set off to university, I found out one of my friends from my drama class at college had passed away due to meningitis. All my drama class were close but none of knew how she was ill until it had happened. I found myself breaking down again and really struggled to stay happy despite it being my first day of my new life.

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- Despite the horrible things that have happened, the thing that's got me down the most is that I have actually had depression. If I can even put it like that. After my cat died, which seemed to top me over the edge, I knew there was something wrong and reached out to my Mum. I found myself in and out of doctors appointments for all kinds of things but most importantly, I was officially diagnosed with chronic depression and the doctor suggested I take the tablets to prevent it. I'm not one for taking medicine so I just didn't got back for the follow up appointment. Too scared to admit that I needed that kind of help. I don't know what I expected in the first place. I knew I was going on holiday and though that would be a nice break for me and eventually I decided I was going to university so I thought getting myself back into a proper routine and having lots to keep my mind on I'd be ok.

Things looked brighter but I didn't really cheer up. I have still been really struggling throughout university up until the point where I considered going back to the doctors to get the prescription. Since I've been back home for Christmas, yet again expecting myself to cheer up because I'm home and it has been Christmas of all seasons, I have still been suffered greatly from random spurts of unhappiness. I suddenly remembered something about side-effects of being on the pill and starting doing a little research. I have now been on the pill for 2 and a half years so since things have slowly been getting worse over this period, it was clear that there's possibly a correlation. My research proved it too. Apparently there have been a large number of cases where patients on the pill have later been diagnosed with depression. So I have made the decision to no longer take them. Hopefully 2017 will prove to be a better year.

I really really hope that the new year will bring much more happiness to myself and everyone! 2016 has been such a struggle and I don't fancy having to do anything like it again.

Look out for the good parts of 2016!

- KC xx

How has your year been? Good, bad or ugly?

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